Teaching 3/31/22

Teaching has been super busy this school year, especially this semester. I have piles of paperwork that I have been working on every evening until bedtime. They want the special ed teachers to have larger caseloads and cover more programs each year. They are literally burying us. I enjoy teaching, but I am exhausted. We…

New Friendship 3/26/22

Like I mentioned yesterday, we met a sweet family from China with a child that has a cancer similar to Robbie. We took them to the zoo today. My heart. He is such a precious child. We have started a beautiful friendship between our families. It brought back many memories today. ❤️ We will try…

Reaching Out 3/25/22

Tomorrow we are going to take a boy with a similar cancer to Robbie along with his mother to the zoo. I hope I can handle the heartbreak, because getting attached to a child with cancer is not going to be easy. If it goes well, we will do what we can to give him…

New Beginnings 3/21/22

I haven’t mentioned it lately, but I am very appreciative to everyone that supported us while Robbie was sick and continues to support me on this journey without him. The occasional notes of encouragement are really helpful. I bought a simple moonstone ring over spring break. It talks about it being the stone for new…

Walking for Childhood Cancer 3/19/22

We try to walk each year for childhood cancer in memory of Robbie, our friend’s daughter, and all children still battling cancer. I would like to do more to support families impacted by cancer, but I still find it very difficult. It brings back so many memories with Robbie. Hopefully someday in the future I…

Missing You 3/8/22

I saw this picture and poem online by Donna Ashworth and thought of Robbie. ❤ — I MISSED YOU TODAY —I missed you today but that’s nothing new,I missed you a million times yesterday too… I saw your bright smile, at least twenty times,and then I remember, it’s all in my mind.I drive without presence,…

Sick Again. 2/27/22

Every time I get the flu, I think of Robbie during his cancer battle and how all the chemo drugs made him sick. He was so strong. Day two of having the flu and I want someone to shoot me and put me out of my misery. I am not sure why, but I have…

In My Dreams We Fly 2/19/22

I woke up in the middle of the night, dreaming about Robbie. We were spending time together, then I wrote this poem. When I can’t sleep and I need to move my mind to restful thoughts, I sometimes write since losing Robbie. It helps me to relax and go back to sleep. In My Dreams,…

My Mother 1929-2015. 2/14/22

7 years ago today, my mother passed away. She was a wonderful mother. I think of her often. She saw so many changes in her lifetime. She was born in 1929 during the depression. She recalled having problems with her eye sight, but wasn’t able to have glasses for a few years. She remembered being…

3 Years 2/12/22

3 years since we heard his voice or saw his sweet smile. ❤️. We continue to carry Robbie in our hearts and into the future with us. His last night was the worst of his cancer fight. He was in pain, very uncomfortable, unhappy, and struggling to breathe even with oxygen and pain meds. He…