4 years ago today in Costa Rica for Ruth and Nick’s wedding. Robbie had so much fun.

The girls sent me a bracelet for Mother’s Day that says…forever in my heart..RJM 1993-2019. So sweet<3 Tears

I have the hardest time in the evenings when I am so used to spending time with him.

Keep Swimming

I have read that when people grieve, they go through an angry phase, but I didn’t expect it. When my parents passed away, I was only sad and not angry. With Robbie I am sad and angry. I can switch from being mild Bruce Banner to the Incredible Hulk in seconds. Missing Robbie so much.

Keep Swimming!

At the Hospital with Robbie in October

Hearts for Hearing

Two years ago today, Robbie was getting his hearing aids adjusted at Hearts for Hearing. He was so happy to be able to hear again. One of the chemo drugs Cisplatin took his hearing and caused non-stop ringing in his ears. He liked Hearts of Hearing so much that when we moved to Houston, he was really upset that he had to change audiologists.

Missing him so much. ❤

Nurses, Doctors, Therapists, Volunteers

Nurses have been in the news lately, so I decided to do a post dedicated to them. ❤

Robbie had many wonderful nurses. They watched over him at night when we couldn’t be there. Built sloth towers on his I V pole with him. One of the doctors would even make up reasons to move him to his favorite floor and nurses if he landed in a remote location of the hospital.

In fact the night before we lost him, he was moved to the Palliative Care unit and Robbie assumed he had been moved to have a better room. He thanked them, which was one of the last things he said. A few came and found us when they heard of his loss, shed tears with us, and said good bye to Robbie. We are very grateful to the entire hospital staff. The nurses, therapists, PA’s, volunteers, and his Doctors.

A nurse making a sloth IV tower together

PT working on his leg

PT taking him outside for the first time in almost three weeks

Putting the strong chemo bag onto the IV cart

Dr Linn. His orthopedic surgeon for his leg

Dr Ratan. His main Dr at MD Anderson

Robbie with the Singing Doctor that sang to Robbie before and after surgery

Robbie dressed up for Halloween

Robbie donating sloths

Robbie and his OT on his 24th Birthday. She bought him balloons and treats. Met him outside of work for ice-cream and was always very encouraging to him.

Robbie with a therapy dog. His owner supported Robbie through out his entire illness and even brought the dog to our house. Now they are both angels.

Rough Day

I had a rough day today. I miss Robbie so much. I really wanted to leave work today by 9AM. I thought about getting a sub. I was so overcome with emotions thinking of Robbie. Work was also very difficult today.

The Piano Guys Concert

Robbie last year at The Piano Guys concert. Robbie really enjoyed the concert. I plan to play one of their songs at his burial. They will be in Houston next week, but it is midweek, so we probably won’t go. Last year, we stayed in Houston over night and used Uber to go back and forth. Robbie was doing so well and we had such a fun evening together. ❤

Happy Easter

My daughter Ruth with a sloth Easter Basket

Ruth with my sister Terry

Terry cooking Easter Dinner

My great niece

My great nephew

Happy Easter! We are enjoying having my daughter Ruth and my sister Terry visiting this weekend. Today we were also joined by my nephew and his family that live near us and my niece that lives in Houston. After a very emotional week, it is great to spend time with family. It was nice to have laughter in our house again. I couldn’t resist buying the sloth Easter basket for Ruth. Robbie would have loved it! Missing him so much.

Thank you for all your support. ❤

Easter Pictures



Easter 1996

Easter 2017

Easter 2015. A couple months before we found out that Robbie has cancer

It has been a rough week as we go into our first Easter without Robbie. I am so sad without him.

Thankfully my daughter Ruth and my sister Terry came to visit this weekend. It is so good to see them.