I deleted my last post. I sounded so negative. I am riding the waves of grief. Sometimes I can do it and other times I wipe out. Seems like the past week was a hurricane wave with no end to the storms.
It is really hitting me hard that the precious boy from China is still in the hospital. I couldn’t bring myself to go this weekend. It breaks my heart seeing him looking like Robbie did and knowing what could happen.
I saw a movie over the weekend and the person grieving was angry towards everyone and shut people out trying to get close and had no desire to keep moving forward. I am not that extreme but I wonder on a much lower level if I am sometimes missing what is around me because I can get so caught up in my own grief. There are still so many precious people in my life. I need to be more thankful for how blessed I am and less angry about what can’t be changed.