In grief training, David Kessler said, he learned when you lose a child at some point you are going to hit rock bottom and then you have to make a decision if you are going to keep living. Wow! So true! I am not going to jump off a bridge, but I am often just going through the motions of living.
Unexpectedly, I was asked if I could help a friend by presenting on zoom to Early Childhood teachers. I wasn’t sure what to expect and I also wasn’t sure if I could share Robbie’s early intervention success story like I have in the past.
Without trying or expecting, I have found a way to honor Robbie, by helping other teachers learn about the importance of early childhood interventions. I spent the summer researching, reading tons of articles and books, buying new Early Childhood books… all to become updated with the current best practices. At one point, I realized that I was back having a purpose for living again. I have presented a few times now and I really enjoy it. I hope I can continue occasionally, even with the school year starting, because it is truly my passion to encourage and work with Early Childhood teachers.
I am very grateful that my friend reached out to me! Without trying, she has pulled me back out of the pit. I am still sad and grieving daily, but also living again.