August 2022

A picture of Robbie waiting for his appointments at MD Anderson 4 years ago. Our last August together. He was starting to have difficulty breathing due to all the tumors and fluid in his lungs. I also started teaching in Texas in August 2018. Something I wouldn’t have done if I knew he would be…

Dreaming of Robbie 7/31/22

I had a dream last night that Robbie was back. I said but he had cancer, so the doctors checked and he was healed. I asked about his heart and spine due to Marfan syndrome and again all checks and everything was healed. Then they checked his vision and his eyes were perfect too. Robbie…

Peaceful walk 7/28/22

The greatest influence I have when I walk is remembering how Robbie never gave up. He walked with a hurt leg that never functioned correctly after his cancer surgery. I find walking peaceful, but I have to drag myself out of my air conditioned home into the Texas heat. Walking is helpful on my grief…

Sweet Memory 7/26/22

I was looking through pictures and came across an old picture of Lynn and Robbie. She used to love feeding him. She was in Kindergarten and he was like having a live doll in our house. With the school year starting soon, I am already thinking about what strategies I can try to keep a…

Family Reunion 7/20/22

3 generations of my family gathered together last weekend for the first time since my mother used to get us together years ago. Some of us have met up for various events, which isn’t the same as gathering the entire clan. Missing were my parents, Robbie, and my brother in law Bruce all in Heaven….

Robbie and the Singing Port Doctor 7/13/22

This is a picture of Robbie and the MD Anderson surgeon that placed a new port in for Robbie for his chemo treatments. They are in the recovery room before we left. He sang Robbie to sleep before surgery, which is all Robbie could remember from surgery. Robbie loved music and his surgeon was known…

Relaxing 7/8/22

A picture of Robbie relaxing with his laptop with one of his sloths. We built an oasis from all the cancer. Robbie liked to sit outside. I am finally able to focus on writing my book this week. The first month after finishing the school year, I was exhausted, full of grief, and unhappy. Many…

Why Keep Blogging? 7/3/22

I keep thinking I should end the blog, but then I remember it is the only safe place to keep sharing about Robbie without bothering anyone. I always worry when I post on Facebook that my friends might be tired of my Robbie posts or wonder why my grief continues to be so strong. I…

Another Osteosarcoma Warrior is at Peace 7/2/22

We were sad to hear that someone we met at MD Anderson passed away this week, leaving her partner and young son. My heart goes out to her family. No matter how much you prepare yourself for what is coming, it doesn’t make the impact of grief or the loss any less. Her cancer was…

Robbie, Lynn, & Sloths 6/29/22

This picture makes me smile and sad at the same time. Love their smiles. ❤️ We are watching the new Star Trek show tonight and in the episode the doctor loses his daughter. She came back briefly and said I am happy and safe, you must go on with your life and write your own…